Fears
This morning I felt myself sent back in time by 10 years!
I woke up thinking deeply into my thought, questoning myself with thousands of fearfull questions, but the most important one is:
If I decide to take this challenge, will I be able to keep it to the conclusion?
Yes, I’m fearful for the decision I have in front of myself, because it is a very important decision that affects a lot of things in my life…
Well, yesterday I have been in my old university in Gorizia, to get back all the papers that could be needed if I will decide to register myself again. It has been a strange feeling, putting my feet again in there, where I have been missing from six years…
I have seen all the hand written ad, from those who were searching for a flat to rent, to those who were selling used books.
I have to tell you that I don’t feel myself any longer tied to that kind of life. I have grown older in those years, and now life is not so easy, not so light-hearted any longer…
I have a lot of strange feelings, that belongs to my past, but that should start belonging to my present and my future again!
In this morning I’ve thoughts more than twenty times that I’m already 28, not 19 anymore, and that it will be hard to take this. But if I was 40 this would have been harder, everything depends on the point of view! Now I have the “28 1/2″ one, and I have to care this one!
Maybe in the deep of myself I have already decided, but no one informed me…
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