The field: thoughts from behind a desk
Every day it is the same desk. Over and over again, working on code that will not make me rich, that will not push me over the monthly bill. This 9-5 routine is starting to kill me. I already had some nice discussion with few of you about it, but the more I move forward, the more I know that I do not want to bring this to my children or to my future wife. I have always been a creative person and I like when I can jump on a new idea, when I can shape my future, and being closed in a box, writing the same stuff over and over again is becoming a slow poison in the last years. London has taught me a lot of things, one of this is to be myself, the person that I really want to be, not the one everyone expect me to be. This is one of the hardest thing to do, as it is a dangerous path.
Every month I get the same check, every month I pay the few bills I have in this expensive city and I move on without remembering a single day at work worth underlying. This is not the life I wanted to do. If I had a child and I would saw him like I see me now I would tell him to look in a mirror and ask if her/his working life is what she/he had expected.
I need to sort my things out, I need to guarantee the minimum to my wife-to-be, but there is something inside me that is telling me that if I will not going to change what I am doing soon I will start regretting this a lot. That voice is whispering that if I will wait the perfect moment to lower the risk to nothing I will never jump.
Pathetic!
Tomorrow I will probably calm down, return behind my desk and finish my work in the same, boring, professional way that I have been displaying in the last years. Right now, though, I have a bloody voice inside me, and it is screaming like a heavy song, shouting about freedom, bigger targets and greatness.
And in all this what has to do this photo? Nothing! it is just a guinea pig for my endless experiments, for my endless preparation for something that will have to come.
It is time to make things happen: the time to prepare and learn is over!
PS: the source of my inspiration today have been Chase Jarvis and his speech and Skunk Anansie, like often lately!
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